Being a runner has shaped me literally into who I am. When I
say this, please know that this a huge understatement and what you are about to
read doesn’t always sjust happen to me; it has happened to many of us crazies.
I struggled with an eating disorder the early part of my
running career. It started out small, but grew to a large problem that
basically took over my life. While I’m trying to not to get to sappy about
this, I as a person was kind of lost. I was so focused on training and running
and eating little of nothing to weigh the mere 79 pounds and a BMI of 14.5 that
that was my life. It was dark, and it was almost scary.
For the longest time I didn’t believe, myself, I had an
eating problem and back then I wouldn’t even begin to start writing this post.
I would deny any allegations and get angry at people who believed I had a
problem.. after all, I was winning all of my races and working hard. I was
kicking butt but I cry at the things I did to my body.
Thankfully, I pulled myself out by the help of good friends
and family. While I even struggle a lot with disordered eating habits still
today and always think to myself “If I just lost 10 pounds I’d be faster”. This
may be true, but if I lost any weight I wouldn’t be me anymore, I need that
energy for life.
I’ve came to terms that my past mistakes don’t define me and
even today, being injured, I’ve realized that being a good friend and a
helpful, kind family member is so much important. GOD is my rock. Running is
after all of that. While I live, breathe, and eat running, I’d sacfrice
anything for those I love.
Beginning today, I’m promising myself that it’s time to
embrace who I am and laugh and smile everyday. Working hard and having fun and
loving life is a great feeling and it is time to embrace it.
If you or anyone is suffering from an eating disorder or
disordered eating, please get professional help, talk to a family member or a
friend, or you can even email me if you’d like to talk! I’m always here.
REMEMBER, good things come to good people. God will take
care of everything. Work hard. Pray. God’s going to bless you!
Much Love and Happy Running,
Megan
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